mungkin hari ini hari yang tepat untuk menangis.

 

mungkin hari ini hari yang tepat untuk menangis

tentang hal-hal yang tak mampu tersampaikan 

dari ribuan kata yang terucap setiap hari

tentang masa yang sudah berlalu semestinya

dan keikhlasan yang setelah puluhan tahun

senantiasa datang dan pergi

Allah yang hidup, aku yang masih berjuang.

another sunday, another blessed day. salah satu bacaan diambil dari Lukas 20: 27-38 tentang orang Saduki yang bertanya pada Yesus tentang apa yang mereka sendiri tidak percayai: kebangkitan.

mereka ini sepertinya penasaran, kalau seorang menikah 7 kali, mempunyai 7 suami, di hari kebangkitan nanti yang mana yang akan jadi pasangannya?

aku tertawa dalam hati, karena baik 2000 tahun yang lalu maupun 2000 tahun kemudian, yaitu masa kini, orang masih mempertanyakan hal yang sama. apa yang terjadi setelah mati?

a note from the stormy weather: happy new year!

 

Hi... and happy new year.

This is the first post for this year. In some minutes, it will be a new Moon in Pisces. Transiting in a place of healing. With the help of the Sun and widely projected by Jupiter. Those who understands will.

Oh what a place of ending.

When the final season of the year started, the whole Universe put me into isolation. Not absolute. But the theme goes on and on.

It is holiday too today. I don't have to worry about not enough sleep and can focus on needing what to be done: to bestow words and breaking an unfinished silence. I was wrong thinking all end when it goes silent.

some people will, some won't.

Some people will get you,

some won't.

And that's okay.

Some people will understand you,

some won't.

That's okay.

Crash Landing On You: A Bibliophile POV

Ri Jeong Hyeok and Yoon Se-Ri

                        

Your most loved Korean drama featuring your most loved thing in the world? What could be better than that lovely duo?!

As one of the most watched show on Netflix, no one could deny the chemistry between Ri Jeong Hyeok (Hyun Bin) and Yoon Se-Ri (Son Ye-jin), that could bring enough electricity to North Korea, that's overpouring through the 16 episodes of love. 

As for me, a hopelessly romantic book lover, there is one thing that's been capturing my heart and eyes, that is: BOOKS.

let yourself lose.

a strange feeling
going back
to your cocoon
yet it feels anew

the dust
of my last step
weeks ago still marked
the corridor

a sentimental note on self-love.

If we are not meant to be together, I will remember, that it's not me who is not deserving you. It means, your vibration doesn't match mine. I have big dreams that yet to come true. I have powerful vibe. I create my own realities. And I'll be okay without you.

And if by keeping my standards high and my vibe beyond, I must lose you, it is okay too. I can accept it. I accept it with joy. Because I know, I will find someone better than you, someone who matches my energy, who aspires to dream high with me, and to fly together.

I am giving up on you. I chose me. I will never stop to choose me over anything or anyone else. My dreams are waiting. The brightness of my future is bedazzling. With or without you, I will be happy. And I am.

Ruang Rahasia

Untuk pertama kalinya dalam kurun selamanya
hatiku sesak karena harus meninggalkan
cinta yang begitu berharga
kisah-kisah yang mengawang
indah namun penuh goresan darah

Aku terbang dalam kekosongan
karena yang terlewatkan masih menjejak nyata
Aku masih menjadi boneka di dalamnya
Kuputar tanpa henti
senandung indah itu
kehangatan itu
sentuhan itu
suara yang menenangkan itu

yang tersisa dari hati yang patah.

Mari masuklah, Luka
Jangan hanya menatap dari balik kesakitan
Datang dan mendekatlah
Saat ini kekuatan telah menghindar
Aku tahu tidak ada faedahnya melawan

Hati, Intan, dan Serpihan

Dari dalam kegelapan tak berdasar
Aku membangun menara pelindung
di sekeliling hati
Kali ini aku memilih intan
Hanya karena intan yang dapat membunuh intan

Dalam rumus dan formula semesta yang acak
Dua insan diharuskan bertemu, jatuh cinta, lalu melupakan
Tiada kesempatan bersatu
Andai saja semesta tak lebih keras kepala,
hatiku ini masih berada di dalam sangkarnya

Cerita Tanah & Kupu-kupu Baja

Suatu waktu, ketika cinta masih nyata, ketika masih ada kita

Pesawat itu terbang tinggi
Meninggalkan tanah sendirian
Menembus langit malam dengan gagahnya
dengan angkuhnya

"Boketto"

..
Entah sudah berapa lama menjadi kebiasaan
Mengarahkan pandangan jauh ke depan

Darimanakah Datangnya Perasaan?

Dan mereka menamainya 'perasaan' 

Filosofi Pita Kado

Sering aku merasa terkurung di dalam diriku sendiri..
Ada yang mati-matian mengekang keinginanku saat ini, saat kemarin dan mungkin di saat yang akan datang pula..
Padahal sejauh mataku melihat,
hidup ini begitu indah.
Meskipun jalannya berbelit-belit, rumit, terlihat sulit, membutuhkan banyak effort dan usaha..
Sama seperti pita kado.
Semakin rumit pola simpulannya, semakin cantik pada akhirnya..
Mungkin kita harus belajar bersabar,
membiarkan Allah menentukan bagaimana bentuk akhir pita kehidupan kita..
:)

Blaise Pascal's Love Theory

"The heart has its reasons which reason does not know." - Pascal (1623-1662) when he tried to explain about God. They said it was a good wordplay. Not all things could be answered by reason. Some questions could be answered by heart. Even some of the best thing in the world only could be felt by heart. Two things in one person who can work opposites each other. Don't you think it's magical whoever Someone who made us?
May be Pascal is already dead but is his erudition too? May be he wrote about this because he wanted to explain who or what God is. But I think, because the relativity of this postmodern age, what he said centuries ago can be applied in our real life.
Everyone, especially girls, will agree with Pascal's writing. Love, as a easiest example, could be felt by heart. Can it be felt by reason? Of course. But they said reason works slowly when you're attacked by love (LOL :D).
I agree with that. That's why some people are fool enough for giving their heart even their life for a man or a woman who doesn't love them back.
Haha I feel so funny now. It's only 8.05 AM here in Central Jakarta, but I already talked about love! :D

Hujan

Entah sejak kapan aku jatuh cinta kepada hujan...

Being Older - For You

Great is Thy Faithfulness

Mata-Nya memperhatikan setiap hati anak manusia yang setia mencari-Nya..

Cinta Boas dan Rut

I always thought love was shape like a heart, but it's actually like a cross :')

Happy Birthday, Betha (09.10.95 - 02.09.14)

Happy birthday, Betha, see you :')